You may feel like you’ve spent a lifetime trying to understand how your narcissistic parent feels. You may have learned to tilt your world to track them as though they are the satellite and you need their signal to survive.
When you feed their ideal self to their satisfaction, you might be rewarded with a compliment or a gift. Or the slightest feeling that maybe, just maybe, you two were starting to connect.
Then again, even if you did everything to your n parent’s satisfaction, maybe you weren’t rewarded. Turns out, you were reading the wrong signal the entire time. And sadly, you were probably the one who felt a bit foolish.
This is what it feels like to have a narcissist parent.
Adapted from When Your Parent Is a Narcissist